afrodisiac

親友のアメリカンに送った愚痴メール。
私の英語は下手ですが許してください。

I was really not interested in guys but my man. But he's acted shady and it really stressed me out. Now he broke the promise again(He always said "I wanna see you" but after all he hangs out with his friends.) And I was so pissed off. That's why I went to the club last night to see lots of cute brothers. Then I could know "There are plenty more good fish in the sea." LOL. In the club, one guy beckoned me. And.........it was him! Well I felt he must be there(by my 6th sense!) Then he was. He asked me to do something but I was very disappointed and refused it. I was like, "It seems you don't wanna see me." He was like, "Asha you don't wanna see me?" Then I said "Why you say that? If you were not here or I wasn't, we couldn't see each other this weekend." Then he said "So why you didn't call me or email me to tell me you'd be here? You don't call me nor email me." I was like, "I called you 2 days ago then you were with your friends and I said we should talk later. And I always email you back! Hey I never blame you and complain to you. You just do what you wanna do. So first you should think for some days if you want me to be your girlfriend before you ask me to do something."　Then he didn't say anything. He even didn't see my face. I told him "Hey look at me, why you don't say anything?" And his reply is "YOU don't say anything....if you don't want me to be your boyfriend, I'll be your friend." I noticed all he does was shifting the blame to me. At that very moment DJ started playing one Bobby Valentino's song. When he was out to sea, I wished I could dance with him to that song. But he changed. I was so surprised about that. The situation was very unbearable and I really was about to cry. So I left him soon before he saw my tears. Actually I cried a little. And we never had a conversation. Still. That guy sucks. All he said is "you trippin for real" But he is trippin! He tries to walk all over me. But he can't....as long as I can be myself.