total score: 25. thursday night at 12. thats how many guys who were hitting on me and steph tonight. my gawd we scored it a lot tonight. not that we were doing something to get the attention, but i guess thats how many guys that are stupid and dumb. no one fulfill my loneliness, because my baby is not them. the more i talk to AJ, the more i want him. its like i cant stop wanting him. i know its the point of being in love, but its really hard. people say that i should be looking at someone that i can have closely. but the truth is that i want to have him so bad that i cant stop thinking about him. i wish he knew how i feel about him....., its amazing how he and i have like actual "connection"in between. although i must admit the fact that i liked being single. it was fun, but then now its not fun. i could hook up with guys if i really wanted to, but its just the fact that i really am in love with AJ, i cant do anything. no one ever will be him, ive gotta have him. anyways i guess im just being depressed over spring holiday. but heck, im going on shoppin tomarrow and im excited about it. its 3;03 here already and i should be going to bed...well ill write some more later on :) peace out!
