LOST IN GLASGOW

Weather : not too bad, rain as usual. However, luckily, it didn’t last long. It was quiet during the night.
I went to London this weekend, so I should have lots of stories to write about but don’t feel like talking about it. This kind of thing often happens to me.

Today was an ok day. It wasn’t too bad but I don’t feel like I’ve done enough. I got up at 11 this morning. This was actually by accident. I set my digital alarm clock (TESCO Value) at 8:30am last night to wake up myself with the loud radio. Usually I wake up before the radio blasts out but this time I can’t remember whether I hit the snooze button or not. Sometimes this happens. My flat mate might have come into my room and stopped it because of all the noise! Well… I think I might stop it by myself.

But the thing is I had a lecture at 12. Usually it shouldn’t be matter because I had an hour to go but, I don’t know why, I checked my email account soon after I got up. Consequently I was pretty late for my lecture.

My right knee hurts, by the way. It’s very annoying because, although it’s not too painful, it is like being hit by a wall. I don’t know why I’ve got this. Maybe it’s due to the fact that I was sitting in a coach, all the way to London, 16 hours in total to go and come back. But I am 21! I’m not that old! I’m not that old!

I had 2 lectures today; Sociology and World Religion. The first thing I usually do during lectures is listen to the lecturer. The second is to glance at my friend’s notes to make sure what I wrote down is correct, because I can never get everything the lecturer says. How silly I am! Well… I don’t mind anyway. I will be able understand them till I go back to Japan. Actually, my English is better than ever. It improves slowly and steadily. But it’s frustrating for me. Imagine I could speak English fluently, like a native speaker! This is one of my dreams. I’m a very positive man. I’m looking to forward achieving this dream!

By the way, my wife, in the future, has to be able to speak English or at least another language apart from Japanese! I’m not racist (well… in a sense everybody is a little bit racist) but it’s just cool not to be like everyone else, isn’t it? Of course, the best and most important thing is actually that we lave each other, but I think international marriages give the children so much more potential, rather than if I married a Japanese woman. Despite all this, I might marry a Japanese woman. I don’t plan out my future. And I’m not such strategic man. In fact, I don’t think you can plan out love. “All you need is love” is famous phrase by the Beatles. A Japanese man is dreaming now writing his diary!! Erm… I’m being stupid.

4 and half months to go, before I go back to Japan. When I get home, I will have to start job hunting, which means I will be moulded and brain-washed to become a worker serving society. That’s exaggerating a bit. However, it is responsible of me to stand on my own two feet. Relying on someone all the time is not a cool way to live. I prefer to help somebody. I want to make daily life more valuable. I don’t want to be buried under my work. I need to be stronger and more active in going after what I want.


I should go to bed now. Get up early! Ok??


Mitsuyoshi Uematsu