LOST IN GLASGOW

Weather : although we had relatively sunny days lately it was cloudy today and has become cold. Even staying in my room, I need a blanket to keep my legs warm. A radiator doesn’t do its job. Rubbish…

6 out of 12 flat mates have gone to their each home or friends’. Graham, Michel, Robert, Sandrine, Soraja and I are remaining. So boring. Watched 2 movies, Time Machine and Breaveheart.

I was not feeling good last 2~3days. Concerning my English progress is terribly slow and about my guitar progress. I felt no hope in front of me. I felt how powerless I am. Not-skilled due to my laziness. It’s wasting valuable time. Thinking of my friends and people I’ve met since coming to Glasgow, they are striving everyday to conquer their weakness and accumulating their confidence in themselves. Realized only wishing is meaningless. I have to stand up and commit the battle to achieve my goal again. It’s very difficult to courage up myself and pull up the motivation when I confront a difficulties. I’m apt to forget the motivation. But, to enjoy life totally, I have to be strong so that I can do whatever I want. The thing is laziness and doubt about one’s potentiality. They are disrupting me. I must defeat it everyday.

I read articles about why Japanese have difficulties in mastering English and I agreed with some of those ideas. Practiced English pronunciations several times. I realized English doesn’t have complicated grammar. It’s simple but that’s why it’s difficult, and instead of it, it has bunch of vocabularies which are nearly impossible to describe the meanings in Japanese. Huh… horrible.

Good news for uber flat mates, I was so excited!!! MR HUGH(not real name) went to the party held at QM last night with hope meeting the girl he likes. We encouraged him so that he could make it (have good time there) screeching in the flat. And, today he told me what actually happened there. They had conversation a lot but in fact she had got to go back because one of her friends badly drunk. Shame. But the moment of her leaving she kissed him! Not to his cheek, but to his rips! Saying “it will continue…” Och, ppphuh!! Maaaaaaaaaaaaaan!!! He looked so happy!!! And I was excited. Actually it’s like a soup every partnerless youth desperately dreams. It’s exactly like Love Actually, Notting Hill!! Gosh. Goodness.

I went to a doctor and was given a prescription on Friday. I have never seen such a casual doctor; male, with fancy beard, in casual cloth. He looked like an instructor of skydiving or scuba diving. My friend from Finland also said he hasn’t. If in Japan, he would be perfectly deviated, although I like that kind of style.

Anyway, I will strive for my goal. There’s no way apart from challenging otherwise I have to give in myself and will regret someday when the things are too late. Then, why not? Efforts efforts!!

p.s. I didn’t have to show my bottom to the doctor, he just asked me some questions then finished, although I had prepared in case I had to, going toilet and taking shower.

Just a ward. I’m straight. Just in case readers misunderstand.