悩み
この頃すっごい悩んでる事があります。でも、まだ言いたくないんで、言わない!wでも、一応あたしの将来のことに関わってる事なんです!何か今日すっごい思ったけど、うちの親って、何かわがままだな!って思いました。わがまま??でもないかもしれないけど、でもあたしの気持ちは全然考えてないかも?When I'm talking about my parents I mean only my dad (and sometimes my sister). He's never asked me anything about anything. He didn't even showed up on my High School Graduation. Now he wants me to do as he says? I don't think so. Don't get me wrong, I love my dad, and I respect him totally, but I don't think that he should tell me what to do since he never cared about me.In my family, I'm the "good girl". I'm the one who listens and obeys EVERYTHING they say. I'm the one who picks up after myself, I'm the one who stays in school, I'm the one who can't always go out at night, I the one who's supposed to take care of the familie's future, blah blah blah~! But can't I do something once in my life for my own sake? Can't I fulfill my OWN dreams instead of theirs? Don't I get to be happy? Can't I get the respect I give to them?I know I'm only 19 and "can't think things throughly" but if they trusted me for such a long time, why can't they trust me on this? Anyways, nothing they say will move my decision now. I've made up my mind, and that's that!