I feel so crunky and pissed easily these days..
so mad at myself that... i am not strong enough to take over my stresses..and it's always with the bad outcomes...so tired....have friends here..but not enough..sorry to my fds...know you guys are really good....glad to be fds with you guys... but few days ago... i lost the most important person...maybe long time ago already.. and i didnt know... and maybe i havent lost her yet...but i just feel so weak now...
i really dont know what to do...i want her back so badly...we fought so many times.. really tons... but i dont know...i still want her so badly...i hate myself that i couldnt into her totally...i lied to her..i couldnt trust what she feels toward me..i am scared..scared of losing her..
maybe i shouldnt go out anymore...i only gave her a bad memory...but i wanna be around her....i wanna be around her and stay with her...but i dont give a good memory...what can i do? i am so lost...