I'll Sleep When I'm Dead!

I am a procrastinator. And I truly regret being one.

I really regret having done that, or... probably I should say, I regret "not" having done that.

My aunt passed away a few days ago. My mother was shocked so much because she had wanted to see this aunt desperately, since she heard that my aunt became sick in bed a few years ago. To tell the truth, however, I never thought she would die so soon, so I told her lots of excuses to procrastinate her visit to my aunt.

First, I was afraid of letting her travel alone, because I can't take holidays. Second, even if I could take holidays, I was afraid of taking Gonta to a pet hotel, because he would not eat at all.

When I took her to hospital Wednesday, she was very serious about going back to her hometown to see my aunt. But I still said, "You can't go before October 21st, because I'll take an exam then. You can go after that."

I could have taken care of that, getting train tickets for her, sending her off to a station on the way to her hometown, and taking care of my home and Gonta.... if I decided to do so at all.

If you have been procrastinating something, you should do that as soon as possible, before you hurt someone.

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ショックで涙が止まりません。
伯母が亡くなったこともそうですが、それよりも母の願いを叶えられなかったことが悔やまれてなりません。

数日前に母が「本当に田舎に帰るから、ホンマにグズグズしてないで切符どうにかして。私一人でも帰るから！」と言ってきたのは虫が知らせたのかも知れません。

伯母が危篤状態になっても従姉たち（亡くなった伯母の子供）が母に知らせて来なかったのは、急なことで忙しかったのと、年老いた母のことを思いやってのことだそうです。

今、母は、パーキンソン病を患っている古い友人に会いたいと言っています。本当は10月、私の試験が終わったら伯母とその友人に会いに行くと言っていたのですが、伯母には間に合いませんでした。

今度は後悔しないように、母の望みを叶えてやりたいと思います。

10月に伯母の法要があるときに連れて行こうと思っています。