mardi 27 septembre
初めてこのテーマを選びました。(w何書こうかなぁ。....いつも通り書こうwi miss him a lot.今夜はマシですが昨日は泣きまくり。。寂しい、という内容のメールはあんまりせんとこうと思って控えてたけど昨日の夜、泣いた時は、耐えられなくてメール送信。滞在中、彼の家族がなんとなく前より優しい気がした。最初の朝食の時は、ほんとに「変」だと思ったほど。だって前回と違いすぎなぃかぃ。思わず彼に、「めっちゃ変な感じ...wもしかして、わたしが前回楽しめなかったことあなた、家族に伝えたの??」と聞くと伝えたんだそうな。wwでもきっと、これは、きちんと自分の気持ちを伝えたわたしの勝利!(勝ち負けじゃないけど^^;)and of course, it's because of his support from love? wthat he wants to make me feel relax in france.i appreciate it a lot.this is what he said:in france, if we let ppl stay at home,we want them feel home here.so, i told him that:if my mother saw that i use things in your house,and open the fridge in your house,she would say "behave yourself!"but this time, as he told mei tried to feel home, be relax, enjoy there.et c'etait bien! :)and when we visited his father's appartment,i've found tres bien that if we could live in like his room!c'etait tres joli! i liked there a lot.mais, the place has no job for my bf. ( maybe nor mine either :p )and it's kinda bizzare pour moi though,i miss the life in france. looolcho- okashii for me. wi really felt that i was alright at this time.because i could talk with his brothers, mother, father,and more, i could order things at shops.i wasn't scared at being there.before, dunno why, but i really felt all alone.but no more :Dlittle by little, all the things are getting better and betteri think :)and for myself, the dicision of living with him for real, hasbecome more serious :)even my parents don't want me to live far, in another country,this is what my bf and i made up our minds by negotiations.