『MY HAPPY ENDING』
この間いつも通りにラジオを聞いていたら普段だったら頭に入ってこない歌が入ってきた。それがアヴリルの『MY HAPPY ENDING』だった。一言一言が胸に突き刺さった。Let's talk this overIt's not like we're deadWas it something I did?Was it something You said?Don't leave me hangingIn a city so deadHeld up so highOn such a breakable threadYou were all the things I thought I knewAnd I thought we could beCHORUSYou were everything, everything that I wantedWe were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost itAll of the memories, so close to me, just fade awayAll this time you were pretendingSo much for my happy endingYou've got your dumb friendsI know what they sayThey tell you I'm difficultBut so are theyBut they don't know meDo they even know you?All the things you hide from meAll the shit that you doYou were all the things I thought I knewAnd I thought we could beCHORUSIt's nice to know that you were thereThanks for acting like you caredAnd making me feel like I was the only oneIt's nice to know we had it allThanks for watching as I fallAnd letting me know we were doneCHORUS X 2 ※一部省略ありマジでこの歌詞はアタシにピッタリ。ただし、あるパートを除いて。それは、アタシにとって『2人の想い出』はまだ消えてないこと。消えるよりもどんどん思い出しちゃってるよ。。。アタシはいつまでこんな宙ぶらりんな気持ちでいればいいの?彼からの連絡を待つのが辛い。けど、急かしてこの微妙な関係を壊すのも嫌。どうしたらいいんだろう。。。自問自答の毎日。最近思うのはもし新しい彼女が日本人でアタシの知ってるブロガーさんかその友達だったら?ってこと。せっかく仲良くなれたのにそれは辛いなぁ。。。アタシは彼に彼女のことを一切聞いてないから単なる妄想にすぎないけど世間は意外と狭いからね。。。はぅ。。。ホント夜になると思考がめっちゃネガティブになるヮ。。。