【亜】arisa no nonsense♀

looking back how i used to be when i was there...

it would have been different if...

but i was there at the period of how my life was meant to be.

yes, meant to be.

let's think, all are "meant to be" certain ways.

let's accept.

because, time just flows.

eternally.

how i used to be back in the days, that was that.
with the brain i had then,
with the experiences i had then,
with the knoledge i had then,
with all my capacity then.

of course, it would have been just so different,
if i had gone through the same situation now at my present age.

the guideline to judge the level of matureness.
one's age, surrouding environment including ppl round her/him.
so many, so many, so so many factors.

everything is moving with its own speed and volume and quality and so on and on and on...

all interwind with each other, yes, all of them.

you can't rush this.

growing up in the real sense.

it's not to do with the physical side at all.

all i am talking about is the mental side.

the physical growth in general is pretty simple.
it is almost fair to everyone.

but, the "mental" growth varies depending on each individual, i guess.

and i feel i am growing.
i have been growing.

still on my 30s, or already on it.

feel the depth.

of the past and the future in the flow of time i exsist.

treasure all.