サラ Sarah's Life ☆Let it go and let them come☆

Sakura Saku...

Sakura is so beautiful and April is here.
Only when I look up those beautiful Sakura, I can forget about my fear and worry.

I have some fear and worry and that feeling has haunted me for long time...

My feeling is perfectly discribed in the novel of Baby Proof,

the author Emily Griffin wrote;

I happen to love XXX slightly more, which has the effect of making you fear losing someone more than if it were the other way around.

Which brings me to another point.
I think I have always had the misguided sense that the worry and fear serve as an insurance policy of sorts.
On subconscious level, I subscribe to the notion that if you worry about something, it is somehow less likely to happen...

The very thing you fear the most can still happen anyway.
And when it does, you feel that much more cheated for having feared it in the first place...

It is exatly what has been in my mind.
All my fear and worry serve as an insurance policy... I see.
But, it can still happen... I see.
So, why bother?
I should forget about those fear and worry and just let it happen or let it not happen...

Well, I know. Saying is easy and doing it is different.