Let it go . (追記・私を助けてくれた詩の紹介
気がついたらもう10日も日記をつけていなかった私。忙しかったのもあるけど、心に余裕がなかったかな。この一週間いろんな人と会ってたくさん話した。少しずつまわり始めた私の歯車。そろそろ決心をつけないと・・・と思いつつ、すでに一年以上経ってしまった。空回りして、苦しんで、もういいじゃない。十分頑張ったよ。後は自分の幸せを考えて、自分が輝ける方向のみを見つめてわけのわからない何かにすがりついているのはやめようね。Let it goLet it goLet it goJust let it goThen you will have space in your heart for something new and brighter,Just let it go...................左のページ欄にも紹介してありますが私がかつて病気とノイローゼで辛い思いをしていたときに、オーストラリア人のルームメイトがふと私に渡してくれたベン・オクリの詩。当時、私をとても助けてくれました。私の大事な宝物。辛いときに読むと何となく救われた気持ちに私はなります。だから私も辛い思いをしている友人にはこの詩を書いて送ってきました。今日は、自分のために。そしてここに来てくれたひとのために、Ben OkriTo an English friend in Africa Be grateful for freedomTo see other dreams.Bless your loneliness as much as you drankOf your former companionships.All that you are experiencing nowWill become moods of future joysSo bless it all.Do not think your ways superiorTo another’sDo not venture to judgeBut see things with fresh and open eyesDo not condemnBut praise what you canAnd when you can’t be silent. Time is now a gift for youA gift of freedomTo think and remember and understandThe ever perplexing pastAnd to re-create yourself anewIn order to transform time.Live while you are alive.Learn the ways of silence and wisdomLearn to act, learn a new speechLearn to be what you are in the seed of your spiritLearn to free yourself from all things that have moulded youAnd which limit your secret and undiscovered road.Remember that all things which happenTo you are raw materialsEndlessly fertileEndlessly yielding of thoughts that could changeYour life and go on doing for ever.Never forget to pray and be thankfulFor all the things good or bad on the rich road;For everything is changeableSo long as you live while you are alive. Fear not, but be full of light and love;Fear not but be alert and receptive;Fear not but act decisively when you should;Fear not, but know when to stop;Fear not for you are loved by me;Fear not, for death is not the real terror,But life -magically - is.Be joyful in your silenceBe strong in your patienceDo not try to wrestle with the universeBut be sometimes like water or airSometimes like fireLive slowly, think slowly, for time is a mystery.Never forget that loveRequires that you beThe greatest person you are capable of being,Self-generating and strong and gentle-Your own hero and star.Love demands the best in usTo always and in time overcome the worstAnd lowest in our souls.Love the world wisely.It is love alone that is the greatest weaponAnd the deepest and hardest secret.So fear not, my friend.The darkness is gentler than you think.Be grateful for the manifoldDreams of creationAnd the many ways of unnumbered peoples.Be grateful for life as you live it.And may a wonderful lightAlways guide you on the unfolding road.March 1991Ben Okri