What's going on?
I just realized that I can just type the diary and look at picture gallary.Oh, well, at least I can do that. I quit getting frustrated.Money is tight, but I get blessings everyday somehow.My old friend from Seattle just left me message, saying Omedetou.But unfortunately, I can't read the message...Please if you are reading this, give me direct e-mail to me Tenderheart0618@aol.comRight now, Melody is awake and sitting next to me, watching me type.I get so stressed about putting them all 3 kids in bed on their bed time.But it's rarely successful, and usually somebody wakes up screaming ormissing mommy from the bed and can't go back to sleep by themselves.When I fight with Wadee, it's about house chores.I know staying home with kids is a lot of work.It is a neverending, tiring work.Only thing getting me going is the break I get from my children's trusting eyes,sweet smiles and funny things they do.But Wadee may think otherwise, and says he wonders why I can't do what othermoms all over the country are managing to do with no problem....I get soooo furious when he starts with that crap, because he has never stayed homewith the kids 24/7.Even when I was in the hospital with newborn Maxwell, he "cheated" by goingover to his mom's and ate her food and didn't have to do any chores.These days though, I think he sees me everyday, every minute what I have to dojust to run the family smoothly. I skip breakfast, just to iron and dress all 3 of them, and if I'm lucky, I would beout of my pajamas, too.All that while, Wadee would be taking shower, ironing and getting dressed.But recently, more and more he helps me out, because he would be home with meeveryday.I think he is getting to see how hard stayhome mom with children under 7 is.I still barely have enough time to put on sunscreen on my face and comb my hair,but we are getting used to the ritual of "getting out of the door".We don't waste any time, and we are like partners of raising children now.I am very proud of him, since when I first had Melody, he didn't and couldn't watch her even for 2 hours without me.Now I even leave the baby with him, if I prepare bottles for him....I went to visit my girlfriend last night after I put my kids in bed, it was great.After about 2 hours, I started to worry about them since the phone had never rang during my stay.She is having a hard time, coming from the Phillipines and have 3 boys, 6,3 and 11months old.We talked and talked, because we related with a lot of things.His oldest son's dad is Japanese, for example.I feel blessed I got to meet her in this mainly White/Black community.Well Melody is rushing me to go to sleep with her, so I am going now.